WHY????

The last few days have been tough on me. I have a lot of personal gunk floating around in my brain that needs sorting out. I am not my usual happy self and that bothers me a lot. I tend not to blog when I am struggling, because just like in my daily life, I also think my blogger friends don't want to hear whine, irritation and complaining.

It requires much energy to stay upbeat in front of others when you are feeling anything but that, so I stay away or just plaster a smile on and keep moving.

But I have decided to share some of my thoughts. Beware, you may not like what you read.

1. Why does the adoption process take so long?
2. Why does each step have it's hang-ups?
3. Why am I so set on wanting to parent three children?
4. Can I wait 4 more years for the third child?
5. Will there be countries open to singles in 4 years?
6. How will my finances stay afloat during CC season, with paying for daycare,
Tuki's babysitter during meets, and Panda's adoption?
7. Why is it that the people who have much money have no desire to adopt and care
for more children, while there are those people with minimal money want to care
for many children?
8. Why does my van break down when I am coming into the fall, when my finances are
tighter than any other time of the year?
9. Why do I always feel like I am on the "outside" looking in.
10. Why aren't my gourds producing female flowers, thus gourds this year?
11. How come so many people think only of themselves, and won't put themselves out
for others?
12. Why do I like to blog when I receive so much flak for it from those closest to
me?
13. Why do I let M's lack of effort in coming to my aid, make me feel worthless, when
I know he could never and can never be counted on? It is just who he is and not
a reflection on me.
14. Why am I so restless sometimes?
15. What makes me think I am capable of parenting children of different races?
16. Why does the color of skin matter???

Here is my big why question: this is one of the reasons why I am on the outside looking in.

17. Why do parents allow their kids to take frogs and turtles, and other critters from their natural setting and drag them home, and then let them die? They say no to other things, why not no to destroying another organism's life. And I'm sorry it DOES not make a funny story. A child just destroyed another's life. What possible lesson could these kids be learning except that it is OK to abuse another life just because they don't see, the parents don't see value in it.. It that such a big leap from other humans not valuing people of other color just because they don't see value in them? There are many studies stating that kids that abuse animals could someday be abusive to other people. Yet, parents, everyday, everywhere, (I have read about it in the blog world numerous times, and recently witnessed it at our local river)) allow their kids to capture and eventually kill animals just because they are "feared", "ugly", "wet", "slimy", "not considered important", "want to take it home". I have much more I could say, but I'll just leave at this for now.

Why is this OK????

I'd really like to know.................. God created all things and he considered them good, why can we abuse them or allow them to be abused just because our kids like to catch them and bring them home. My dad always use to say to me. "Don't treat another living thing any differently than you want to be treated"

I know some reading this may think this is an inconsequential topic, but remember our kids catch our values, and if we don't value all life, then how are we going to teach them to value all life, no matter the species, breed, or color.

If they (all organisms) were created and born by God, they are of value, they are good............

organism = anything that is alive...remember I am a science teacher, therefore I am compelled to teach........