Cheetah-(code name)

Ok for my big news, I am bringing home another daughter from Haiti. So yes that makes two. Oh yeah, if you think I am a little crazy, then yes, I will agree, but I know a God that has led me to this place AND with peace and joy.

But to fully understand this whole situation I have to tell you the story about Cheetah.

Last February, I had originally committed to Hawk, believing at the time that he was a healthy, happy 10 month old. I quickly scheduled my home study and acquired the papers for my dossier. I was approved for 2 children, with the hope of bringing Cheetah home too. So come April, I finally made a commitment to her as well as Hawk.
Soon after (weeks), I found out how ill Hawk truly was, and after talking with many people, and freaking out a little about the idea of bringing a young sick toddler and a healthy 6+ year old home at the same time, I let Cheetah's referral go (She was not at the O yet, so I felt I didn't alter her life in any negative way) so I could devote the time to Hawk. Another family committed to her right away the next day.

Then come late June, I traveled to Haiti to meet and assess Hawk. It was at that time, I realized that I could not pursue his adoption because I felt his condition was just more that I could handle in my given situation, single and working mom with a young child already at home. I also had the opportunity to meet and spend some time with Cheetah. The last night there, I played catch ball with her, another girl and three boys from the O. It was this time and the fact that I noticed her within hours of arriving even though I was still across the street at Walls Guesthouse, that I knew she was to join my family. Somehow I felt there was a connection and I was angry with myself for letting her go. Many, many other visiting adoptive parents that have met her, had also noticed how sweet and kind Cheetah is. BTW, Hawk has a new forever family that is better suited for him.

As soon as I arrived home, I started contacting the O's facilitator and let her know that if Cheetah's adoption with the other family didn't happen then I wanted to bring her home to also join my family. I was also in deep prayer about this whole situation as well. God really worked a deep faith in me for trusting his provision over the summer. Basically letting me know through various situations that Cheetah was his idea and that he would provide through me for the 3 girls (includes Tuki). After all they are his children first, secondly they are their birthparents and thirdly they are/will be my children.

I also just felt deep within my spirit I was to also be her mother, but then early September, I heard that the other family was to send in their dossier within the week, so I reluctantly let the idea go and starting thinking and praying about the possibly of a different third child. There are so many that need homes. I could not, no matter how hard I tried, shake the idea of a third child away. But then lo and behold, this Saturday, Cheetah became available again. The O's facilitator let me know late Saturday and I committed to her that night. So...that means I will be a mother of 3 sometime later next year. I am over the moon over all 3 of my daughters!!!!!!!!!

I do realize that it will take time with allot of work, understanding and patience to help the two new girls adjust, attach and trust me and Tuki, but I know God will be with me through the thick and thin of each and every day.

Before this summer, and before God's deep working in me, the past years with difficult situations, I had lost trust and faith in his provision for me, yes I believed in him, I just didn't trust him....thank goodness he didn't give up on me.

For those of you reading this and thinking OMG, does she know what she is getting into, the answer is yes and no, yes, because I have read, am reading and preparing for their arrival, and no because until they are home and I am parenting three children, I won’t understand completely. But I feel in time, it will all be good!!!!